Finally, MST week has passed...That was a horrible experience...And finally I understood what 'Time and Tide wait for no man' this phrase means...Sigh...After 6 weeks, another Semestral Exam will take its place...Scary!!!
But, I still feel happy in last week. Through group studying with Xueyang, James and Jovi, I found that I am quite useful sometimes...Haha...In last week, we went to City Hall everyday, after test. Although we talked a lot crap, we still managed to study abit. The unforgetable experience is my first time sleeping in the shopping center!!!That day, after AMMP paper, I was damn tired because I didn't get any sleep at previous night. And the sofas at Raffles City are very nice and comfortable. That's how I was dragged into my dreamland...
We had made many funny things...Yesterday, while we were studying in the same Mcdonald (opppsite Raffles hotel, not Chijmes), I made a joke. I wanted to borrow the book from James. Then I purposely said 'book' in Japanese slang. The guy sat beside me took a look at me. It was very strange: why he looked at me? But, in the end, I know the reason behind it. He is a Japanese!!! I was like, very embarassed.Haha..
After MST, many people said they will fall sick soon, and some have already been sick. So, girls and guys, must take care of yourselves!!!
i will always miss you*
8:00 PM
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Today is the first day of MST...And the first paper is Physics...Sigh...I didn't perform well today...I have forgotten those basic things...sigh...
After exam, I had lunch with Xueyang, Jovi and James. And we travelled to the same place (Mcdonald outlet tat opposite Chijmes) to study. But we sat at the cosy and cute chairs at Raffles City...It's pretty cool...We chitchatted for almost 45 minutes.Then we went to study...
After coming home, I am damn tired...But, I STILL HAVE AMMP HAVEN'T STUDIED YET!!!i think my AMMP will be gone soon....hope I can finish it bah....
i will always miss you*
11:47 PM
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I like these two songs a lot...And I recommend them to you because the lyrics of both songs are beautifully written. And I would like to dedicate to someone ^^
Enjoy!!!
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Before I Fall In Love by Coco Lee
Lyrics
My heart says we got something real,
Can I trust the way I feel?
'cause my heart's been fooled before.
Am I just seeing what I want to see,
Or is it true could you really be?
*Someone to have and hold,
with all my heart and soul.
I need to know before I fall in love.
Someone who stay around,
through all my ups and downs.
Please tell me now before I fall in love.
I am at the point of no return.
So afraid of getting burned,
but I want to take the chance.
Oh....Please give me a reason to believe,
say you're the one that's you'll always be.
* (repeat chorus)
It's been so hard for me to give my heart away,
but I would give my everything,
just to hear you say.
* (repeat chorus)
Love,me by Coillin Raye
Lyrics
I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923,
Grandpa kept it in his coat,
and he showed it once to me.
He said:"Boy, you might not understand,
but a long, long time ago.
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none,
but I love your grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together,
get married in the first town we came to and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead.
I found this letter, and this is what it said:
'If you get there before I do,
don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through,
I don't know how long I'll be here.
But I'm not going to let you down.
Darling, wait and see.
And between now and then,
till I see you again.
I'll be loving you,
love me...'"
I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away.
In the doorway of the church where me and grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years,
but as he said these words to her,
his eyes filled up with tears:
"If you get there before I do,
don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through,
I don't know how long I'll be here.
But I am not going to let you down.
Darling, wait and see.
And between now and then,
till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love me...
Between now and then,
till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love me..."
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And lastly
to my best friend, woei yi,
Have a safe journey from London back to Malaysia...And Welcome Back!!!I shall meet you in July...No matter how busy I will be...LOL...See ya, buddy!!!
Hmm...There are too many things happened recently......
I am too playful, naive, straightforward, too confident and never think about the consequences...These are my weaknesses...And I know I did really hurt many people and many of that have become scars in their heart. Although 'sorry' this word seems doesn't help much and many people have been misusing it, I have to say it millions times to those I hurt. I hope it can ease your pain although it cannot make what has been done be undone...
I am selfish....Most of the times, I do things is because I wanna do and neglect others' feelings...Although sometimes the things I do is for my friends, maybe my stubbornness and the way is wrong, the things will become worse than expected and I do hurt my friends accidentally...
I am not a genius. But there are not many people can understand what's on my mind. I always said 'I don't expect people to understand my mind', but deep in my heart, it is the other way round. I am just an ordinary guy. Sometimes I really need someone to be with me always and lend his/her ears. I am not a saint, therefore I always make mistake. And I always hope people can forgive me, especially my friends. I really don't hope I will lose such wonderful friends because of my foolishness. I will remorse in the rest of my life...
I don't know since when I have hidden my true feelings or shut the door. I don't like people to worry about me. That's why I seldom share my troubles, sadness or my sorrows with others. I always keep them in my heart and solve them by myself. I want people surrounding me can always be happy. That's my hope...
I know my private life is complicated. Someone once said comment on my private life. I am unable to control what people think of me. But I have to make myself clear: I will never be proud of having such complicated life. Sometimes, it's a burden. People always look at the surface, but they always jump into conclusion without knowing the truth behind which is always can't be told. Well, after all, just like the name of Bon Jovi's song, "It's my life". Being myself, my true self is the thing I always do. My life will have to carry on no matter how.
Many times I heard people said 'if the time can reverse, I hope I would have never done all the mistakes I have made", but can the time really reverse? Answer: YES, providing I can surpass the speed of light, which is IMPOSSIBLE...So, the only thing we can do is just looking forward, learn through mistakes and amending what we have done. Learning is a life-long journey and we will only learn the lesson when we make mistakes. Making mistakes is not a sin, but never learn through mistakes is."To err is human, to forgive divine." ~ Alexander Pope, 1688-1744~
i will always miss you*
1:15 AM
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2nd June 2008
Today was the first day of the FO camp. And I had BSC workshop today. I told David that I am sick, and he said, "Yes, you are SICK'." Then I was like -.- " haha...He asked me to play bowling with him. I felt like going with him, but I couldn't because our camp started at 1230h.
I met the campers at 1230h. After taking their attendance, I asked them gathered in groups. And asked them to discuss their group names, cheers and flags. Meanwhile, I was runnnig here and there because I was trying to get the key for the bunks, but David was having lunch. So I had to wait until after 1400h. After moving to the bunk, we started playing games. First game is whacko. It is very violent games, especially it comes to our female members. LOL...
Polar bear was the game before dinner. I was practising with Kenneth our skit. I can see Kenneth had put alot of afford into it. Thanks, dude!It's very funny....Then we had our dinner. After dinner, Sean played some movies. And after movie, Kenneth started his story telling. But, his stories could only up to 3o minutes. So I had to take over the story telling, though I am not good in this.
After that, night walk started. Jing Xiu and I was the first pair... We kept chatting while walking. She is a brave girl. And I was a gentleman also...haha...And we reached the end point safely. After that, we went to bathe. And I had rashes on my neck and I never brought my powder!!!I chatted with some of the campers and went around to check them. We opened more rooms for the campers because there's no aircon in bunks.
3rd June 2008
I slept at 3 something in the morning and I couldn't wake up on time. When I woke up, it's already 0830h. And most of the campers had already been ready. I decided to let them prepare their talent time skit after breakfast because I afraid they might have no time for it. After lunch, we had a passing soap game. It's very funny. Alvin and I became the facilitators. And the forfeit that we thought were very funny. LOL...
The treasure hunt started. After collecting the dinner for campers, I went to Jurong East to buy vegetarian food and a cake for Calvin and Sean. I was so relaxed. Haha...They decided to have dinner at FC 2, so Weilong and I became samsui men. Haha...
After dinner, we celebrated the belated birthday of Calvin and Sean. Then we went to bathe before talent time. I was surprised with their performances. I had only one word - SPLENDID!!! In fact, after talent time, I would like to have disco night. But no air con in the bunks, so in the end, we just forgot it. *sigh*
Then I chatted with the campers again and I was bullied again....haha....
4th June 2008
Today is the last day of the camp. We had the prize giving ceremony and a simple closing ceremony at 11 something. After that, some of them went back home, and some of them left to enjoy the movies: Epic Movie, the Simpson movie and V for Vendetta. We watched movie until 1730h. Then we moved things to our club room. When I reached clubroom, I realized that I left my earpiece and laptop adapter in the bunk. So which means I have to go to school to retrieve them next day.
Mos, Melvin and I stayed in the clubroom until 2300h. We talked and played...Haha...
Although this camp has not met my expectations, it still statisfied me. Thank you, all the helpers, facilitators and campers!!!
i will always miss you*
10:37 PM
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Again, I was sleeping in front of my computer until 6am. Then I went to my bed and sleep again...At 8 something, Zheng Yuan smsed me and woke me up. After replied his smses, I went back to my dreamland until 1 something. Seriously, I had a nice dream but I can't remember the contents.Haha^^
I played my General until 2 something and I had to make a trip to POSB branch at Jurong Point. I had been waiting for almost 45 minutes there. And I went to Orchard MRT to wait for the members who joined for the food outing...Then we went to MoguMogu Kitchen at Far East. But Huining, Calvin and I didn't order food from there. We went to have our dinner at SubWay instead. Haha...
When Mos went to washroom, Huining, Calvin and I were playing with the escalator. We went ups and downs using the escalator, like what I did when I was kid.
After that, Calvin, Mos and I went to Paragon. By right, I wanted to buy my perfume, but I had blocked nose. So I have to buy it next time. We went to the bar lounge at Grand Hyatt Hotel. We had a nice guys' talk and no those working stuff (like camp or club)...It's very relaxing...Thanks, my buddies...
Around 2345h, I went home. Suddenly my brother offered to treat us roti. So we all went to have our supper near NUS. I am really full now...haha...
Yes....MY camp is on next Monday...But I have to prepare many things-.-" Hope it will go on smoothly...
お休み、皆さん。
i will always miss you*
2:06 AM
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